Lifestyle · My Mental Illness · YOGA/MEDITATION · YouTube

Where I’ve Been: SAD, 300 YTT, and More!

Me during my 300 hour Yoga Teacher Training at the Yoga Underground in Provo, UT. Photo Credit by tiatakespictures on Instagram.

Winter punched. Me. In. The. Face.

After a tumultuous and shocking Thanksgiving, a busy Christmas, and a bone-chilling New Years, my body and my mind shut down. I could barely create, get out of bed, get to work, or even talk to my husband. I spent a lot of my free time crying and considering self-harm.

For those of you who have been following me for a while, you know that I’ve suffered from clinical depression and anxiety for years. For the most part, I can stay on top of my mental illnesses, but after the emotions of the holidays and the missing sun, I think I just couldn’t handle things anymore.

I believe that because I didn’t face my feelings or I kept burying them for the sake of my family, they poisoned the rest of my body and then I shut down.

Thankfully, I have a wonderful husband that helped me through, helped me write an entry for a yoga teacher training scholarship, and got me to a good doctor to get me on medication for a short time.

I was able to get a partial scholarship for a 300 hour Yoga Teacher Training and started attending these in the evenings. Even though I was starting to recover from my depression, I was physically and emotionally exhausted because of the training.

However, through this training, my medication, and a supportive husband, I’ve been able to come back.

I learned so much in this training that I can’t wait to tell you all about 🙂 I may be slow at first because I’m now just gathering my life back together, but I’m stronger, wiser, and ready to jump back into life.

I hope everyone’s winter was better than mine. If not, I hope it gets better soon.

I’ve come out with a new meditation specifically designed to help those with SAD (seasonal affective disorder). Take a listen and let me know what you think. I hope it helps you feel a little more at peace.

Thanks for all the support and the love.


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