Winter punched. Me. In. The. Face.
After a tumultuous and shocking Thanksgiving, a busy Christmas, and a bone-chilling New Years, my body and my mind shut down. I could barely create, get out of bed, get to work, or even talk to my husband. I spent a lot of my free time crying and considering self-harm.
For those of you who have been following me for a while, you know that I’ve suffered from clinical depression and anxiety for years. For the most part, I can stay on top of my mental illnesses, but after the emotions of the holidays and the missing sun, I think I just couldn’t handle things anymore.
I believe that because I didn’t face my feelings or I kept burying them for the sake of my family, they poisoned the rest of my body and then I shut down.
Thankfully, I have a wonderful husband that helped me through, helped me write an entry for a yoga teacher training scholarship, and got me to a good doctor to get me on medication for a short time.
I was able to get a partial scholarship for a 300 hour Yoga Teacher Training and started attending these in the evenings. Even though I was starting to recover from my depression, I was physically and emotionally exhausted because of the training.
However, through this training, my medication, and a supportive husband, I’ve been able to come back.
I learned so much in this training that I can’t wait to tell you all about 🙂 I may be slow at first because I’m now just gathering my life back together, but I’m stronger, wiser, and ready to jump back into life.
I hope everyone’s winter was better than mine. If not, I hope it gets better soon.
I’ve come out with a new meditation specifically designed to help those with SAD (seasonal affective disorder). Take a listen and let me know what you think. I hope it helps you feel a little more at peace.
Thanks for all the support and the love.